Where did the summer go?

It seems like just days ago I was lamenting the fact that summer had arrived.  Typically, my summer consists of working on some sort of academic project, spending long hours plugging away at something that I’m not even sure I want to be doing.  This summer has been different, but there was plenty to dread, nonetheless.

First of all, I have been reading for comps.  I have been attempting to read for comps.  The crazy thing about how I work is that, in order to work well, I need to know that I have significant non-work-related distractions awaiting me in the evening or on the weekends.  I think I wrote in a blog this summer that I wish I had a pet or were in a book group or were in love.  That’s precisely the kind of thing I’m talking about.  I have to know that when I close the book, there’s something fresh just around the corner.  And, although I’ve been spending a lot of time just bumming around with Muffy (which I love to do), I haven’t had that feeling of anticipation that makes nose-to-the-grindstone feel like it’s worth a s—.  So I haven’t felt like it’s worth sh–.  As a result, I haven’t been working well, and I’m behind schedule.  Way behind schedule.

So, it is with mixed feelings that I look ahead to fall.  I’m glad the summer will be winding down soon.  But I’m freaking out about all that I haven’t gotten done and all that needs doing that lies ahead of me.  In short, I’m having sort a rough time right now. 

I’m happy that I can look forward to orchestra starting soon (less than three weeks until rehearsals!).  That seems to anchor me.  I wish it were a year-round deal.

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Another great thing about fall is fantasy shopping.  I can’t get everything I want because I know many things won’t look good on my body and, most importantly, because even if they did I couldn’t afford much.  But there’s something exciting about combing the internet and putting together a fictional fall wardrobe that incorporates new trends and old favorites.

What’s on your wishlist for Fall 2007?

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